I was 3.5 years sober from IV Heroin until I relapsed after a horrific ending to an abusive & highly toxic relationship, which left me jobless, and homeless just before Covid started last year.
After losing the ability to see my providers face to face because of Covid, I quickly turned right back to my favorite coping mechanism to deal with the stress and anxiety I was experiencing after losing so much so quickly.
I went on a nearly year long run which ended with me getting arrested for trafficking. There was no real end in sight for me, so my arrest was honestly the silver lining of all of this.
After getting arrested, I detoxed in jail for two weeks, and found a great Sober House to live in, and I’ve been here now for almost two months, involved in the AA community, but I’m struggling with finding a sponsor with whom I align with, and I’m also beginning to think that maybe AA is not for me.
I’ve tried working with two separate sponsors with whom I fail to connect with, and I fear that most of the sponsors don’t think like I do. I have done a lot of work surrounding my trauma, and making amends with people in my life, I readily admit that I am powerless over drugs and alcohol, I have had a spiritual awakening prior to my first stint in recovery, and I have a great relationship with my higher power.
I am highly self aware, and I personally believe that I might flourish in another type of recovery program, but AA just is not for me.
Does anyone have any recommendations on programs that have worked for them? What did you love about it? What did you hate about it?
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