Wtf I can't keep a phone for longer than a week w.o breaking it.. it's fucking crazy how I can think about leaving to go get high over that.. I literally started to relate how I take care of my phones is the type of person that I am and will always be, broken and essentially worthless.. fml Lol 
Hi Ryan. Do you have an iPhone? They're not built as good as Android. 
Just teasing.
You are not worthless. You have a purpose. You are valuable.
Do you have a professional therapist you can talk with about your brokenness?
Don't give up on you. Keep going.
Get a phone case, friend! One with a good bumper and bounce control.
What programs are you working right now, if any? I suggest reaching out to a sponsor and finding a program. None in your area? No problem. COVID has made lots of things accessible virtually!