Why can I not see the beauty all around me?

Why can I not see the beauty all around me? I live in a tropical paradise where scenes like this are minutes away, yet all I hear are slights from people, real or imagined. I read into every word or action as a personal attack on my failings as a person. Some days I just want to say, f it all and pick up the bottle again where at least I’ll feel good for a little while.