No matter how much I try, how far I get, how long or amount of attempts, im treated like the low addict. How can everyone ask me for the old sober Tylor with hope and smiles back; but don't stop treating me like the deeply hurt shattered addict with malice and spite.
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I am sorry you are struggling with that. I understand where you are but also what they must be thinking. Far too often people take the wait and see approach. Let's wait and see if they actually change before we forgive. Let's wait and see before we open ourselves up again. It is a human reaction, but it is still hurtful. We have hurt so many and hurt ourselves just as much. We can barely forgive ourselves, and can not carry the guilt of what they think as well. We have to learn to live our sobriety for us not them. They will come around...hopefully. if they don't then find people who will.
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Forever dude youll.learn you have to lie. This world is full of evil people who just want to be better. Who cares if they judge you, probably go home and look at child porn
You be you, the future Tylor you see for self, the old Tylor with hope & smiles to me seemed to be hurt hence why he turned to the hurt shattered addict therefor the smiles & hope were a cover up, but now that you seemed to have found purpose & meaning in your life & your reasons “why” you want to be sober & better then you be the new amazing Tylor you knew you could be, are, will continue to be & you be him well.
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It gets better but I had to work steps to get there.
Stay clean and sober one day at a time. The people closest to you will see the changes. We can only control ourselves. Things will get better
Keep working your program.
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Don't feed into the stigma. You are simply Tylor. Be kind to yourself. Take your time and forge a new you. A new you that serves you. That you deserve to be. That you want to be! Then in won't matter to you what people think. You will command respect. Feel better!
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Hold your head high. Staying clean isn't for the faint-hearted. Be proud of yourself and surround yourself w/people in recovery . Recovered addicts are going to be your truest, bestest friends. We understand .