Today was rough. Realizing you have more people in your life willing to get me high than help me eat, stay warm, succeed in life. I was already lonely but this realization just whew..
That's people Hyatt. I had a "friend" who took me to the bar for drinks on my 21st birthday. She was willing to pay whatever amount to get me drunk. I didn't drink as much as she thought I should and she stopped talking to me.
I have people in my life that would do the same and wouldn't make sure I had something to eat. I'm not sure why that's human nature.
Hang in there, bud.
You still in there Hyatt? It is a sad truth that people are a lot like crabs in a bucket. More than happy to help you stay down, even while trying to get up themselves.