Just went a 100 days sober to drink on Friday blacked out like everytime I drink it’s crazy how I turn into everything I’m against tired of putting myself through this ruining friendships relationships and just everything I have positive nothing but negative comes from drinking and seems like no matter what I try I just can’t let it go smh I’m just sick and tired of being sick and tired really hate the person I have become
That’s ok just get back on the right track maybe go to a rehab for 30 days that’s what worked for me I tried detox a couple of times for five days that didn’t last long you need to get on the right track and a in house rehab will work for you I think 
Identify why you chose to drink, then avoid that trigger.