This morning was bad for my girlfriend got into a fight for what she found in my phone we been together for 11 years and my addiction and the stupid things I do in my addiction is ruining our relationship and I admit to no like really put all out there because I just came to the fact and agreed that my loneliness I have is because of me trying to hind my problems from so I’m trying to change but I need people who understands what I’m going thru and I need some advice and to top it off my girlfriend well if she is even still my girl I don’t know I’m outside in the front yard smoking a cigarette but NE ways my girl was diagnosed schizophrenic active disorder five years ago and she was just shot by the cops this year in February with all that it’s hard for me with the voices she hears sometimes and always thinking I said something our getting married having a baby by other all time can take a toll so if anyone can really give me some insight wisdom etc it will be appropriated
