There hasn’t been a day in the past year I

There hasn’t been a day in the past year I haven’t drank. It’s killing me but maybe I’ll have a break

Hi there,
Yes, take a long break. I suggest getting to the root causes for your drinking. Something I did. It's not pretty digging into that, but very necessary.
I faced issues all the way back from childhood amd seeing how that shaped my decisions as an adult. More importantly, I learned that I was still reacting to my childhood trauma.
All the best.