I‘v been feeling So isolated lately. I live alone and all my meetings are virtual. I just feel like there’s no point in even being sober bc no one would even know i relapsed
i understand how you feel, it’s so easy to think that no one would be affected if you relapsed but you could possibly lose your home if you relapsed. im not sure of all the things you have & would lose at the moment but Im sure it would be bad if you relapsed. I would seriously recommend talking to your sponsor if you have one about how you feel. If you have any sober friends reach out maybe go to the park and hang out in person if you feel comfortable outside.
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That’s a good idea i do have a sponsor but i dont want her to be disappointed in me
Right i used to feel the same way, but you don’t owe your sponsor any explanation she’s there to help you get through those feelings. Service keeps us sober
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Hi, Jackie.
I know things are tough- but think about you will gain if you don't drink. You'll gain happiness because you didn't give in. You'll gain peace because you don't have to live in regret. You gain a sound mind because you didn't forget what happened when you drank. You practiced self-care because you didn't relapse.
As Rachel said reach out to your sober connections. Do something that's fun and relaxing.
I believe in you.