New to this app struggling right now

New to this app struggling right now.

Hi, John.

What's going on?

I just got out of surgery about two months ago I was told that I had terminal Spohn in brain cancer my case went all the way to the mayo clinic and by some miracle the mass was removed and it turned out to be a mutation and I am fine other than going through the surgery. I had 15 months of sobriety but since I’ve been home now I’ve been drinking daily I don’t know if it’s just because of the pain, The boredom but I’m just feeling defeated. I don’t feel hopeless but it’s just been an emotional roller coaster this last year. Thanks for asking I know that is a lot to think about her a lot to hear.