Steven, glad to hear that u do.somethinf similar to humor yourself about your sober journey... however, please I hate to hear u put yourself down, by saying the only dummy is you looking in the mirror. we ALL make mistakes-- bc we're all human. But you sir, are NO dummy-- anyway u look at it. And if there's one thing I've learned on this road to recovery... it really helps to change the negative words we tell ourselves... instead of "ugh, I'm such a failure... I couldn't do anything right if I TRIED!" Try to change the syntax to words that r more.kind and gentle to yourself. Believe it or not-- there have been TONS of studies lately, that show when we ridicule ourselves... even jokingly, it messes with our self esteem. Kinda like the self-fulfilling prophecy: I you keep calling yourself a dummy or stupid... then you get in the habit of saying that about yourself. You play that negative tape enough... you'll come to BELIEVE you're an idiot... incapable of making wise or smart decisions, bc uve labeled yourself a "dummy". Smile. You're amazing! And smart!. Maybe not Einstein smart... but that doesn't make you dumb. *sober hugs