I've tried to stop drinking quietly by myself and have meet with very little long term success. Not really sure how this works. I went on another bender yesterday and I've hurt my husband to the point that he's done even wanting to help me again.
That's your problem right there. You're trying to do it quietly and by yourself. You need help to fight this disease! Most likely, that means professional help, too. You wouldn't try to cure cancer by yourself.
Let me know if you want to talk about my experience in treatment