It hit me like a brick wall today. I know what to do. I want to get a harley and tent and travel the country jumping ibew locals for work and seeing the world. My wife is trying to keep my babies from me I can't live like this but I don't have to. I have accepted it. There is no sense in denying ones true self. I am an outlaw type and it's all I'll ever be. I did good. I put her through college gave her my house gave her everything I've got to ra.ble on. I will keep my babies in my heart forever and always.
Good luck