I'm up and I have work that's 45 minutes away

I'm up and I have work that's 45 minutes away at 8:30 am. I'm on blow and alcohol. Chain smoking. I'm lonely it hurts. I'm down to literally 10 bucks from spending everything on blow. Just reported my abusive ex. In danger of being retaliated. Losing friends because they're overwhelmed and scared of getting hurt by him too. My sister died last year. I'm hurting. I'm scared. I'm lonely so so lonely. And anytime I'm stressed I go get blow. I'm tired. I need help. I self sabotage. It hurts.

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Hey Rai!!! How are you doing now ? Did u make it to work?

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I did! My morning client thankfully canceled... And I was able to get some rest

I’m glad you got some rest.

I used to do this a lot. You can always message me if you want. Sometimes it just helps to talk to someone who has been there and I have. I still struggle.