I want to hurt myself so bad. I hate m

Recovery
#1

I want to hurt myself so bad. I hate myself and my life so much, I wish I was never born. I wish I never became a writer, Im just stupid :sob::sneezing_face:

#2

Please reach out! I am here with you

#3

You're reaching out, that means something. It means deep down there is a way to get through this.

#4

I've sat staring down the barrel of a shotgun. Just take a step back. People really do care

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#5

%100 of Your bad days are behind You !.

#6

I am sorry you're hurting. Punishing yourself it only hurts you more. I can remember

#7

Remember my first week sober. I had the DT's bad. I wanted it to stop so bad. Anything seemed like a better option. I wanted to die.

#8

Thank you for telling on yourself. It will get better. Get moving. Talk to someone in program. We're ALL here for you.

#9

What worked for me was admitting the depth of my addiction, and the depth of my hurt. Admitting how I was responsible for how unbearable things were. I dropped down on my face and begged God to help me. That night of hell was the turning point. I was ready to do whatever it took. I soon after got a Sponsor, and did whatever he said. The more I followed his advice, the better I felt. Though not always right away. Sometimes it was hard. But it was never as bad as that night of insanity, or clarity. That's what worked for me anyway.

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#10

You are not stupid. Writing is an amazing talent, being able express your thoughts and feeling through literature is a talent many whom do not posses. Don't be so hard on yourself. :pray:

#11

Hi Anton. We're here for you. You are not stupid. While your writing may be different from everyone else doesn't mean you're bad at writing. It simply means you bring a unique style. We want and need uniqueness.

I'm grateful for you and am glad you're alive.

#12

Talk to someone. Reach out. Stay positive anyway you can.