I’m going to Vegas to get a tattoo next week. I’m afraid I won’t stay sober and part of me wants to drink just to prove to myself I’m not an addict.
It makes me feel broken and weak knowing I’m an addict (logically I know this isn’t true of other addicts but it’s how I see myself). I guess I want to free myself if that thinking.
Hi Jude. Weigh your options. What's more important? Getting a tattoo and (possibly drinking) or not getting a tattoo and not drinking? I would definitely say the latter.
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Sounds to me like you are already planning your relapse which is a process just like recovery is a process. Change your thinking! What can I do for my recovery today? Meditate, read something on recovery, pray, call a friend, and go to a meeting 
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Vegas is a define trigger for me too
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