Keep on keeping on man. One day at a time, stay in the present. One moment and decision at a time works for me. You got this! 
Samantha u found a wealth of knowledge in ME!! Lol. Let’s just get this out of the way…I AM NOT ON HERE TO DATE!!!! Can I get a minute to BREATHE?? Lol Did I mention I do Stand Up? Hello !?? Is this thing on? U hearin these type clacks girl!???? Before I dive head first into what I have ascertained boutchu n ur , let’s say perceived drug of choice relating to ones spouse issues….. take me off line please. I’ll speak to u in private IF U SO CHOOSE. REAL TALK