I have been struggling to journal and found this app again on my phone. Maybe writing my thoughts and feelings here and getting some feedback here and there could help. I can’t stop obsessing over the fact that I gave up a year of hard work by putting myself in an uncomfortable situation and using alcohol to make myself feel more comfortable. It was not a problematic relapse and I did not cause any trouble or hurt anyone other than myself BUT IT JUST WASN’T WORTH IT.
If you’re reading this and you’ve stopped going to meetings and talking to people about how you’re feeling because you think you can do this on your own TURN AROUND and go back to your meetings and sit your ass down. LOL
Don’t make the mistake I did.