I had a "using dream" last night.. woke up scared but relieved that it wasnt real, but JUST a dream.. my first one ever.. I'm still weirded out by it though
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I'm so sorry 
. That sucks. I have dreams of blackout drinking every once in a while and have to convince myself to let go of that icky guilty feeling because it never happened 
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Glad you are safe, sober and that it was just an upsetting dream. 
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Melissa and Melissa I'm glad those were only dreams. I've had some dreams that spooked me and to find out they're only dreams is a relief.
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Those dreams really kind of suck! Scary, creepy.
One thing I heard from a therapist was that there is an idea out there that says dreams are our brains way of flushing out thoughts that don't serve a purpose anymore. So maybe your brain is pushing that crap out?
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Using dreams are scary when they happen, but it's such a relief to wake up and realize you didn't slip, everything is fine! It's actually worth it to me, because the relief is so palpable, and it's a good reminder not to go back to that place.
Sometimes my using dreams involve hiding behind a cabinet in my parents house drinking, and I get covered in spiders. I try to flick them off but they're too sticky. The symbolism is kind of on the nose doncha think? 
But it's very common,and like Erik said it's probably our subconscious processing a new way of thinking.
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They are wild and can be really disturbing. I have them intermittently are are really happy to discover they are dreams. When I was drinking I was mostly blackout drunk so I didn’t remember dreaming for years. A real sad sacrifice when you think about it. I’m grateful for my dreams now. I take it as a sign of a healthier mind.
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