Hi, first day here. I’m having a really hard time with depression and anxiety. I struggle with alcohol addiction, cocaine use, pills and uppers.
I’ve had so many “day 1’s” that I’m starting to lose faith in myself.....here I am again on day one. I just want to feel happy again. I feel like a shell of the person I used to be and I’m really struggling. Thank goodness I’m working remotely today, I can’t stop crying everything feels like too much.
I called my therapist to start back up with sessions, but I’m starting to wonder if this struggle will never stop, if I’ll never actually be better. Depression, anxiety, and OCPD, and addiction.....I can’t get a grip.
I’m hoping this app/community will help me stay on track, I just feel so alone and I can’t see the light at the end of the tunnel. I’m trying to stay positive but it’s just not working right now. sorry for the depressing post, I’m glad to see so many encouraging and uplifting posts on here, but I’m just really down in it right now, I’m lost, and I don’t know what to do anymore.