Great to be sober! I'm reminded of my previous sobriety date of December 11th 2002. I went for almost 9 years until that dreadful day where I picked up again.
Oh it felt great at first. I felt like I was in Heaven. After a while, the perils of alcoholism started showing their ugly faces and it wasn't fun anymore. I just wanted to get through one day without drinking but I struggled. I remember that I kept asking myself, how did you get yourself into this mess? You had almost 9 years and you blew it!
What happened?
Fast forward July 6th 2014. I checked in, got help and started going to meetings all over again. After a while I had finally come to the conclusion that what had happened to me was I believed the lie; that this time it will be okay. But is wasn't.
This is why I'm always telling everyone that when you are thinking of picking up a drink or drug, play the scene all the way forward. Because you're going to end up right back at the beginning every time or maybe worse. And then we have more guilt and shame to carry around with us.
I have learned through the years that it's easier to stay sober than to get sober. I did it one day at a time through my higher power which I call God, going to AA meetings, taking the 12 steps of AA and picking up the phone and talking with people like you.
