First day here. Ready to beat this and enjoy life.
You got it big guy, read the first 3 words on page 112 then continue to page 417-420 for your current guide
In the big book AA, feel free to message me if you need to talk brother
Sending you good vibes! 
Its a bumpy day but it will be worth it. Take it one minute at a time if necessary. You got it.
Welcome.