My life was a mess until sobriety came upon me recently. Fortunately mine was a forced sobriety due to me going to jail. During my time inside I decided that giving my life back to God was the only decision that I could make to ensure I stayed off drugs. Nothing that happened over the past few years or during my stay was in my plans. I had turned completely away from him and devoted my life to doing what I wanted including getting lost in meth. My mental stability was close to zero, I had attempted suicide several times, did countless things i wouldn't have done had i been sober, and was ready to give up on life altogether. Thankful God had a plan far before I was aware of it. While I wasin jail he inspired me to write an inspirational book to help me get through the struggle, i would like to share it with you if you're interested. As hard as things are for you right now I can guarantee one thing, if you take the first step towards recovery and admit you're powerless and give your life back to God, he will help you. The path to recovery is not easy but its doable and in the end you will find that choices, especially those to stay sober will be easier to make. I understand that that first step is hard, but it's well worth it. I have a friend in a similar position and unfortunately she has yet to decide to take the hard step. Be patient with yourself and ask for patience from those around you and don't ever give up on yourself or stop asking for help, it is out there and it will find you when you need it most. I wish you the best of luck in your fight and may God bless your path.
