Find a new hobby!! Its helped me in the past
That’s not good to much time on the hands is bad, you need to get be engaged
I made it through the day .
Dude I’m here for you...play the tape forward...we know what it looks like
John keep fighting. Call your sponser or the hot line. You can do this, grab the bull by the horns, this will pass. Staying sober will give you courage to fight another day.
I dont have a sponser but I would call the hotline if knew what it is.